Baseboards, blinds, ceiling fans, hidden clutter. I do okay keeping up with the day to day stuff, but all these "now and then tasks" are mounting.
Man. How am I ever going to get to all of this?
I mean, I can probably figure out some sort of a time management plan to deal with it...quite honestly, it's the motivation that's killing me.
Admittedly, finding the motivation to deal with tasks that will inevitably pile on top of me again is hard. Sure, I'll clean out the junk drawer. And the closet. And dust the fans.
But it's not like it'll change anything.
The junk will re-accumulate.
The supplies will still dominate our only hall closet.
The dust won't go away.
And, soon enough, I'll be blogging about a to do list that I can't find the motivation to deal with.
Full circle, ya know?
Sometimes, I feel that way about diabetes. When I notice a pattern creeping in...like lows before lunch or highs 2 hours after bedtime -- OR BOTH (as is our situation right now), I cringe.
Because it means I have to figure something out. I have to stop and think. I have to troubleshoot a million variables, half of which I'm probably not even aware of.
I don't wanna.
I don't wanna think about all that right now.
Having my brain in a constant state of alert, combined with perpetual exhaustion, and anxious feelings about making decisions regarding her insulin needs seem to suck all the motivation for the rest of life right out of me.
But I know it's not an option.
I see my hardworking husband...I see her smiling face as she twirls through the kitchen, pretending to be a ballerina...I see her little sisters looking at her with adoration and vice versa...I see three little girls who are growing up right before my eyes, and I am grateful for the gift of being his wife and their mother.
And, ya know what?
All the other stuff will just have to wait a little longer.
Because if I only have this much energy leftover, I am sure as heck not wasting it on THAT!
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And what a waste it would be!!! I am imagining the music from the Lion King; "THE CIRCLE OF LIFE"......
ReplyDeleteSave your energy for your hottie husband and your three precious little bundles of joy. ;)
Love ya Wendy!!!!!
Hi Wendy, question for you...what do you use to track her numbers?? I have a hard time tracking her numbers and need to do a better job of it so we can manage the highs and lows at certain times of the day. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteI am right there with you! I would much rather spend time with my kids than doing any of THAT. :-)
ReplyDeleteI use the fly lady's system of cleaning - she's got a website and a book, but really it's about doing a little every day which adds up to be a lot.
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you with Isaac's numbers...we were fighting both ends all day yesterday and today, now I need to really sit down and figure this out - sometimes it's hard for me to see a "pattern" when or days are filled with so much variability.
Let us know how it goes :)
i know what you mean! i do the essentials. then i choose to spend my spare time doing something that requires little motivation...just enjoy them being little!
ReplyDeleteRight there with you...I've got a mountain of laundry that's accumulated over the past few days, but can't seem to get myself in gear to tackle it...it's much more fun to spend my "free" time with my girls and hubby :)
ReplyDeleteThat's exactly why my house is full of clutter. I am spending my last full days with Ladybug at home before she starts Kindergarten next year and cherishing each day with her. And when my other kids come home, of course they are my priority. Kids grow up too fast and we don't want to miss it! The cluttery house can wait! It reminds me of this:
ReplyDeleteI hope that my child, looking back on today
Will remember a mother who had time to play;
Because children grow up while you're not looking,
There are years ahead for cleaning and cooking.
So, quiet now cobwebs, dust go to sleep.
I'm rocking my baby, and babies don't keep.
I agree with Sarah, the flylady system is awesome! I am such an untidy person, but she makes my life a lot less hectic.
ReplyDeleteMe too...a little each day...but you are right. Life is too dang short and I hate to waste too much of my time on the pesky cleaning tasks. I only do them when they get pretty bad.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your gorgeous fam friend.
Love this post! It really hits home for me. I need to learn to let the "other" stuff go sometimes. (Aw, who am I kidding? I let it go way too often! I just need to learn to be ok with that!)
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